For me letting go seems to be a fine line between:
"LAZY, Lax and not caring"
"aware and feeling the flow"
I seem to confuse the two.
Per the question of what will I do. I follow my coaches recommendations:
- only trade when in a calm, settled condition
- EFT's (tapping exercises - this is a truly magical technique if you haven't done it! and I haven't done them in over a couple weeks)
- In a mindset of prosperity and positivity
- Spend the time with historicals so it isn't akward when I am trading. For me it is like meeting up with an old friend, sometimes the conversation starts up a bit 'off' until you get in the groove again.
I do this journey for me as stated in the first post. It will show a traders journey and not perfection. I have always believed that complete transparency is the best way to 'set you free' from so many common EGO limitations.
I still believe the key for me is to stick to it, work through the bad periods (make them smaller and smaller) and increase the winning periods and size.
This is a great journey to be on!
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Market Replay +19 ticks PREMARKET GC (31 Jan 2011)
Market Replay on GC
(Strange, recorded sound for me, but somehow messed up again, so no sound)
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I think this is good for me. I have changed my trading style to focus on the longer term trades and it has been a steep curve again. Days like today you will never get a retracement (or atleast until later) and due to me not being patient with proper areas I just go in-in-in-in-in-in.... YIKES!!!!!!!!
Lazy Revenge Trading at its worst. This is BY FAR MY WORST DAY. I was not trading technically and because of the impatience it is costing me more time and energy.
Days like today test your nerve for trading in my opinion and I have to let go and be technical. Letting go of today is important. I thought I was seeing it clearly but I can see quite a bit of laziness in my trading.
I technically don't understand days like this. I will go back to my more conservative trading for now and see where I end up. Trading for 10 points seems like a big pill to swallow for me right now.
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I saw it, man! I thought, that my old bad habit dissapeared, but it just moved to YOU . No, I think, it is still in me..
but such an overtrading could be very destructive in next days, because of revenge to markets.
What are you going to do to be more conservative? I mean, do you have some A,B,C,... setups and are you going to pick only A, maybe B?
What about your feelings - focus after 3,4,5 loss in row? I admired your calm voice during trading, I would be very aggressive .
Then, I was thiniking about recording your session and commentating it, dont you have a problem with it to put it together with trading?
When I sit to computer, I take big headphones and play some music to hide all unwanted sounds, interference noise ( my wife ) and I am very happy,
when I am able to catch every move of market (very rare days) . I am really interested in your next steps, it might help me too,
I see in yours monday disaster trading day lot of my days , thanks for sharing.
Good questions. The trading method is highly discretionary and not mechanical w/ A, B, C type setups. Really it is a mix of mostly price action using Multi-Time-Frame MACD's. It really isn't the indicators (except maybe yesterday where they were a bit off) but mainly me and reading price action. I changed my method of trading and it isn't suiting me quite yet.
I think I need to get back to trading conservatively a bit and not shooting for the 10 point runs as I am not reading them properly at the moment. I can and have, but right now it seems that the best runs I have been getting are 2-3-5 point runs max which is plenty if I am consistent. So, I am going to focus on getting consistency down again.
I am up (positive) for today, and I will take it. Ranging day and mainly 1 good trade in that time and I didn't hit it.
Thanks for your comments. I appreciate it and it is obvious from looking outside isn't it. My "letting go" seems to entail making lots of donations to the market. All part of the cycle.
I have worked hard on keeping myself calm and not getting emotional over the last year. I am on SIM, but I do the same when I am on cash now, and I do feel emotional inside, but my steady voice is showing me trying to hold them down or at bay.
I will get out of this 'RUT' and move past it and I believe it is all part of the never ending cycle of becoming a master trader. I know when I played baseball in school that I would go through similar periods where my batting would completely fall apart. I couldn't hit a fastball from a 4 year old at some points, then mysteriously I would break out of it and voila.
I think what you do in these periods if you are trading live is to go back to SIM and once you are 'seeing it' again move back to cash. Just my strategy I guess. However, I will not be cash until I am 2+ points per day (average) for at least 2 months. Otherwise I am just making the broker rich.
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I went into today feeling no different then any other day. I didn't think about yesterday or last week at all. I felt I needed a win, whether it be small or whatever but a win would be nice. In hindsight, I felt maybe I could have stopped at when I was up about 50.00 and at 2 trades for the day just to practice control. However, I didn't want to limit my trading due to fear either.
It was a ranging day in about 2.5 points roughly and I caught a couple of them. I made a couple gifts as well which kept my profits pretty low. I am happy with today even though it wasn't perfect trading and in hindsight the best trade was ignored.
My goal is to be consistently profitable again no matter how small and I will grow it from there. I think my move and decided change to trade larger with 'letting go' was probably a little to much in 'letting go' to make a profit.
I am struggling w/ technicals lately too so I think per my previous post it is like I am in a batters slump which is OK! It is ok to not be perfect day in and day out. It is OK to have a hard time trading occasionally, however the key is to pick myself up, focus on the positives and progress the best way I can.
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Well, what can I say. I thought about not even posting, but then what use is the journal?
I didn't go back to my conservative style and kept with the attitude of 'letting go' to the point of where I have no emotions and just clicking. This is how I sank my account the other couple of times. I will call it Lazy revenge trading.
It seems to me that there is weak volume in the early session 9:30-11:00 as getting filled and the way it seems to be moving. I have never traded this poorly and I am beginning to wonder if I should just take a break as I am just plain terrible right now. Sit on the bench as they say.
It is obvious what I am doing wrong, but for some reason, click, click, click, revenge, revenge, force, force. YOU WILL GO DOWN YOU *******!!!
Taking a week off! See you next week. No charts, no trading, nothing for 1 week. DONE for now.
I do believe the system works if you follow it. I am not following it plain and simple.
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Good job posting even on a tough day. Have you considered slowing down to only 3 trades a day for one week, so you can focus on execution of each trade and know ahead of time there will be only 3 the entire day?
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