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Are you familiar with Market Profile? The plan I use is above. The books I provided are also very helpful for all of the above.

Just trying to help, but the plan to stop counting the dollars is the first step I took in overcoming overtrading and really tried to understand the markets. My interest is in them more than the money. I see that as a by-product of understanding the market structure, weakness, and opportunity.

If you read Mind over Markets you will be blown away with the aspect of understanding the markets. I hope that helps.

I am. I actually was elated when i saw that Tradovate offered it in their standard software. I know that John is a big profile guy and therefor Topstep is a big TPO organization. I like it, i use it, i understand it (mostly), but it's just not my trading style. I recently had another funded trader through Topstep essentially try to preach to me that profile was the end all be all, and all other trading styles were inferior and of a lesser cloth. But, like i said i mainly just use it as a tool in the toolbox. Much like volume profile, reading the tape, etc.

The reading rec's you put forward are in line with a lot of other people and they're already on my list for next purchases, so i appreciate that.

And honestly i could care less about the actual money. What i care about is P/L. Because again, that is the reason we do this. And the it's more about preservation of capital as opposed to accumulation of capital. But at the end of the day that's how Topstep judge's and measures their traders - by their P/L. Take too big of a daily loss? Booted. Too big of a weekly loss? Booted. Too big of a trailing drawdown??? Booted. I have to literally count the dollars right now because that's what will make or break the account.

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OK, hello @Merkd1904 again.

First, let me tell you not to be too hard on yourself. Much of what you wrote could have been written by many traders starting out, as well as many who started out a while ago and still do some of those things. It's part of the territory. And dealing with them is too.

I do go along with everything @matthew28 said. I'll add a little, but he did hit the high points.

I would say you are trading too much size. I would say that you are probably making too many trades (without seeing a chart with the trades I can't be sure, and, as I said, I'm not opening your pdf's. ) I know, and you know, that you are trading emotionally, probably in terms of both "positive" and "negative" emotions, which I will get into in a second. I know, and you know, that you are not controlling your losses.

So, what to do?

On the emotion thing, which you referenced in different ways a couple of times (impulse trading, revenge trading and so on) -- it is impossible to live and breathe without having emotions, but it is essential to also not let yourself go nuts emotionally while trading. You can do a lot of things, such as drive your car, work at a normal job, conduct business, and never feel the need to go off the rails. Trading does in fact offer many, many opportunities to go temporarily off your rocker. It is a very good idea to pass them up. (I'm not saying this as someone who has never gone off the deep end. All traders do.) There is also the trap of what are normally positive states, such as confidence and elation when you do well. They will sink you just as fast.

Unfortunately, the way to stop is pretty much just to stop. You can help yourself by keeping what you have at risk smaller, which gets back to reducing your size, the number of contracts you use. Also, probably taking fewer trades. I don't know anything about your trading method, other than it clearly sometimes works for you, and sometimes not. I would look first, and always, at the two paired elements of risk management (keep positions small) and loss control (kill losses before they become large.)

On the position size front, traders often want to go larger because, naturally, they can make more. But in your shoes, I think you should put making more profit behind learning how to trade in a more consistent, controlled way, and simply give up the dream of high profits for a while. Dream of doing good, steady trades that work out, and keep your emotions quieter by keeping the trade size smaller.

How small? One contract is a good idea. Or a micro. But anything where the risk of loss and the thrill of winning become non-issues for you, because the amount at stake is too small for you to care, and it's only something you do for the sake of learning the craft. Use more, slowly, when you've learned more.

I could go on, but you get my drift.

Good luck

Bob.

Hey bob, finally getting back to to this.

I mean you hit the nail on the head, mostly. But,


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There is also the trap of what are normally positive states, such as confidence and elation when you do well. They will sink you just as fast.

This is something i've honestly never had front of mind. But to see it textualized does help, so i appreciate that. I always tell people that the second you look at your positions and/or your p/l and go "I'm so f'in smart" is the second you need to close out, because the market has a knack of making you feel really f'ing stupid shortly thereafter. Almost like i should listen to my own advice huh?



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I would look first, and always, at the two paired elements of risk management (keep positions small) and loss control (kill losses before they become large.)

On the position size front, traders often want to go larger because, naturally, they can make more. But in your shoes, I think you should put making more profit behind learning how to trade in a more consistent, controlled way, and simply give up the dream of high profits for a while. Dream of doing good, steady trades that work out, and keep your emotions quieter by keeping the trade size smaller.

I'll start off by saying you're right in general. But i keep a 2.25 point stop in ES and a 5.25 - 6.75 point stop in NQ, and i rarely if ever deviate from them. I try to keep my risk defined to $150/contract, no more Where you're nail on the head is my risk management in aggregate. Meaning per trade i'm good, but keeping track of how many losing trades and what they add up to is my weakness. There'll be times i'll take a $500 drawdowns to get a $1000+ trade. Sometimes worse, sometimes better. But overall i'm working on patience in general and that is getting smoother. I embedded the PDF's so you can take a look at some of the trades (just right click and open in new tab). Like yesterday for instance i had multiple $1000+ trades (or 50 plus points in NQ) just to take 5-10 losses to get into another one. This is the problem. This goes back to the first of your points i highlighted, almost an overconfidence until you look down and see that nice cushion you have to play with one the day has been 50-75% depleted. Mick over at TS brought up the two steps forward, one step back. And although i didn't follow that completely yesterday i made a point to.

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Glad I got some of it right.

Basically, I was just throwing out some things I knew that can get the emotions riled up and get us going down the wrong paths. Use it however seems best.

Hope it works well for you, and that you can get some value out of keeping your journal here as you work through your issues.

Good luck.

Bob.

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Alright, i have to keep this short as i've had a working thesis built on what's currently happening in the markets for the past 1.5 months and have to get the video out. I find it massively ironic that i wasn't able to trade my live account today due to my daily loss limit being hit overnight. But, such is life and it's my own fault.

I essentially stopped trading before the fireworks really started as i was already up over 1k in my sim account and had some work to get done. I traded NQ, ES, and NQ today.




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Well. Don't really know how to start this so i'll just spill it.

I lost the funded account today after getting stopped out again overnight, waiting until i had the set up late morning/early this afternoon, and then tried to execute at known S/R levels to fade the morning's freight train move into the gap.

I took one bad fill. The rest was just part of trading and fighting the trend, but in my defense i was waiting for my "signal" and was only trying to fade at pre selected levels. . That's what's tough about these funded accounts is that you can get into desperation mode trying to save the 1-3k account in which you start with. If you've been trading long enough you've probably done it. It's the ever present positive feedback loop of taking losses, letting those losses get to into your head, and then trading outside of your normal rules and parameters in order to make up those losses.

Well first off, let me start by saying i claymore'd myself trying to trade while traveling. That was a huge and expensive learning lesson and one i'll soon not forget.

It sounds stupid, but one of the things that i think actually hurt me more than helped me was the personal loss limit hard stop. Instead of just trading normally and going about my business i was overly concerned with winning a trade, and winning rather large as well so i could have cushion throughout the day, and also catch up the deficit. I don't mean sizing large, just larger price targets since i needed to make up lost ground.

Another reason this hurt me, and by all means, it's my fault, in general if the market is going against me I know when to to retreat, rest, and recover. But it's incredibly easy to take a $450 loss trading futures. Especially with a 2.25 stop in ES and a 5.5 point stop in NQ. And with that I found myself trading outside of my plan, moving stops, second guessing entries, and not taking profit because I was trying to get out from underneath the loss limit.

Moving forward i think i'm going to use a hybrid approach of Tradovate's daily profit target and daily loss limits as soft stops, and a trailing drawdown hard stop. Therefor it'll tell me "hey, kick rocks "when i hit these limits and then lock me out if i go full dumb. But a $450 hard stop trading /NQ isn't that viable to me.

Another issue was just timing, and luck. Last night i was trying to fade the open as we had gapped up after a pretty intense impulse move lower. I sold the level in which they found resistance, and in ES that was even a marked level on the chart. Mind you, I have been patiently waiting for this move since we started to show signs of weakness in NQ the end of June. Literally dreaming of it. I have an entire thesis built on it including trend, pitch, and time cycle analysis. This was my time to shine. But.. I was locked out of the account yesterday, and got locked out last night an hour before the markets slowly started to roll over. Yes, i was too eager. But my last contract i got stopped out on was when price broke out, only to do so for about 20 minutes. And again, i was in my own head and that's my own fault. But I *knew* the move overnight was coming just like i knew it was coming yesterday. Today, it's even worse. With my last contract being stopped out literally a minute before the market rolled over.

All is not lost though. Being the flashes every so often of ingenuity young guy i am i wasn't going to let last night's move go to waste. I had a that i had not used for the combine, and opened up another combine account between getting stopped out, and the move starting. And, i'm glad i did as it turned out to be one of those rare flashes of ingenuity as i'm already at the profit target for the combine step 1. 80-90% of that netted in the overnight session.

One thing i will say is that the sim accounts through TSTrader and Tradovate feel.. different. I'm not sure if this is just a function of psychology, or if it's actually something ever so slightly different in the software. Maybe it's the fills? I don't know, but the character's different. Like, if they were cars i'd say they drive differently even though they're supposed to be the same car. (also, for whatever reason, bracket orders were being sent without stops at one point overnight.............)

With that i will be trading, at least psychologically, the same as i was in the live account. Meaning the plan is exactly the same, less the $450 loss limit.

But, regardless. I chalk the past few days up to it just wasn't meant to be. I made a fatal decision when i took the account -$2992 trading while traveling and wasn't able to recover out of that death spiral.

And another thing i will not be doing is resetting. If you can't reset the live account you shouldn't reset the combine account. I think that may be the psychological difference. That's where the desperation of getting into a tail spin in any live account comes from. It feels like at some points you literally can't breath.

And lastly, i'll be journaling it all here as well. Starting with the death of my live account, and the birth of another combine account. I will get funded again, it's just another episode of me learning one, or in this case a whole shit ton of the market's expensive curriculum.

Live account last day:

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Bad luck on losing the Funded Account but in someways it becomes inevitable when you get down so close to the maximum drawdown that it becomes hard to place a trade when you can't afford for it not to work.

Regarding your new Combine, I hesitate to say well done on passing it because you have done it in one day. If you trade enough size that you can make $12,000 in a day, I imagine you can still easily have a day where you lose $3,000 and hit the DLL. For most people having winning days four times the size of their maximum largest losing days would be great, but not if having one or two consecutive losing days can lose you your account.

As your profit target is $9k and you are well above that you could just buy and sell for a tick profit or loss for the next four days until Step2. But you wouldn't do that Funded so I would switch to Micros and carry on trading in the same style and contract numbers, but for a tenth of the risk and see how that pans out. You might find you are more relaxed with trades, tempted to manage them differently, are more patient, or whatever. I imagine you will learn something that could be useful at least.
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Well. Don't really know how to start this so i'll just spill it.

I will say "well done" for the mature and realistic assessment of the entire thing and your willingness to be accountable, and to just pick yourself up and get back on that horse that threw you.

I'm glad you started this journal, and I hope you have great success in your trading.

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The advice given is well meaning and all very good. However, it was pretty clear that you weren't going to follow it. It wasn't until your last post that the really telling stuff began to jump out of the page.


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Another issue was just timing, and luck. Last night i was trying to fade the open as we had gapped up after a pretty intense impulse move lower. I sold the level in which they found resistance, and in ES that was even a marked level on the chart. ...

Being the flashes every so often of ingenuity young guy i am i wasn't going to let last night's move go to waste. I had a that i had not used for the combine, and opened up another combine account between getting stopped out, and the move starting. And, i'm glad i did as it turned out to be one of those rare flashes of ingenuity as i'm already at the profit target for the combine step 1. 80-90% of that netted in the overnight session.

So, when you got locked out, your "issue was just timing, and luck". Yet, your $12K one day new combine profit was a (albeit rare, in your words) "flash of ingenuity." Instead of this, could it be that your wins are just timing/luck, and that your losses are flashes of .. something else? I don't know what "gap up" you're talking about (we haven't gapped up this week), but when you fade, sometimes you get run over. I'm not sure what level in ES you're referring to, but I didn't know whether to laugh or think you're kidding when you said, "in ES that was even a marked level on the chart," ... just.. good one.


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I have been patiently waiting for this move since we started to show signs of weakness in NQ the end of June. Literally dreaming of it. I have an entire thesis built on it including trend, pitch, and time cycle analysis. This was my time to shine. But.. I was locked out of the account yesterday, and got locked out last night an hour before the markets slowly started to roll over. Yes, i was too eager. But my last contract i got stopped out on was when price broke out, only to do so for about 20 minutes. And again, i was in my own head and that's my own fault. But I *knew* the move overnight was coming just like i knew it was coming yesterday.

Sorry chief, 30 straight days (6/3 to 7/16) without even sniffing its 20-day moving average, most of it hugging the upper 2nd sigma of that, is not weakness. But I digress.

You might as well have married your idea. When you're that locked into an idea, the result is the inability to see any other outcome. "Pro" traders do not trade this way. The successful ones have the amazing ability to have conviction in their idea, and then the humility (or good sense) to cut, and often, reverse. They don't fight the market (at least, not with size that matters enough to hurt them).

But that's not the real issue. It's this: "I *knew* the move overnight was coming just like i knew it was coming yesterday". Say it with me: bull, f-ing, shit. Unfortunately, we have the element of time in trading outrights to contend with. If you want to lessen that impact, you have to pay a premium for it in the options market. I can't tell you how many times I've "called a move" only to miss it by a hair. It's what the market does, man. If we could all have a 20 minute grace period or a few ticks buffer to be wrong, we'd all be rich -- literally everyone on this site can tell exactly the same story you did: "almost nailed it, was off by a tick or two ... sold just a little early... " yada, yada, yada. You didn't KNOW anything. You were just like hundreds of other people -- you got it wrong, because being early, with size, is being wrong too.

Thinking that you know what's coming means that you don't *really* consider the possibility that you're wrong, which means you don't really need to be concerned with risk.. why would you? You can't lose. THIS is why you blew up, and it's why you are going to blow up again. Unless you change it, of course. In fact, to put a real wet blanket on your Friday, you're actually doomed to repeat this cycle for many years, unless you actually learn to respect risk. +$12K days mean squat if the same behavior that got you the $12K results in you losing it all, and more, over the next few days.

I almost forgot: stop f-king trading on a plane. I've been there, and it's the most moronic thing you could possibly do. Just stop being an idiot. If you did that at a real trading firm someone else's ass would be in your seat the following Monday. I'm not kidding. TST tolerates it because you have made more money for them than you've lost, because you paid for combines and resets. They know a gambler when they see one (you), and you'll keep coming back to the well enough to make it worth their while.

If you really want to improve your results, I have something that will help you, but I doubt you'll do it. Here's the challenge: don't trade at all on your new combine on Monday. In fact, don't look at the market. Do something else. Don't open the platform, don't check quotes. Log off today at 5pm and don't even look until Tuesday morning. Can you handle that? My bet is, not a chance in hell. This little exercise was designed (by me, for me, when I was also an addict) to remove a little bit of the punch bowl from your life. You are completely imbalanced (and your girlfriend knows this, and doesn't like it, btw). Regain a little balance, regain some clarity, and gain some consistency. You won't do it, but that's what I'd recommend, if you would like to step off the treadmill and start actually getting somewhere.

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The advice given is well meaning and all very good. However, it was pretty clear that you weren't going to follow it. It wasn't until your last post that the really telling stuff began to jump out of the page.



So, when you got locked out, your "issue was just timing, and luck". Yet, your $12K one day new combine profit was a (albeit rare, in your words) "flash of ingenuity." Instead of this, could it be that your wins are just timing/luck, and that your losses are flashes of .. something else? I don't know what "gap up" you're talking about (we haven't gapped up this week), but when you fade, sometimes you get run over. I'm not sure what level in ES you're referring to, but I didn't know whether to laugh or think you're kidding when you said, "in ES that was even a marked level on the chart," ... just.. good one.



Sorry chief, 30 straight days (6/3 to 7/16) without even sniffing its 20-day moving average, most of it hugging the upper 2nd sigma of that, is not weakness. But I digress.

You might as well have married your idea. When you're that locked into an idea, the result is the inability to see any other outcome. "Pro" traders do not trade this way. The successful ones have the amazing ability to have conviction in their idea, and then the humility (or good sense) to cut, and often, reverse. They don't fight the market (at least, not with size that matters enough to hurt them).

But that's not the real issue. It's this: "I *knew* the move overnight was coming just like i knew it was coming yesterday". Say it with me: bull, f-ing, shit. Unfortunately, we have the element of time in trading outrights to contend with. If you want to lessen that impact, you have to pay a premium for it in the options market. I can't tell you how many times I've "called a move" only to miss it by a hair. It's what the market does, man. If we could all have a 20 minute grace period or a few ticks buffer to be wrong, we'd all be rich -- literally everyone on this site can tell exactly the same story you did: "almost nailed it, was off by a tick or two ... sold just a little early... " yada, yada, yada. You didn't KNOW anything. You were just like hundreds of other people -- you got it wrong, because being early, with size, is being wrong too.

Thinking that you know what's coming means that you don't *really* consider the possibility that you're wrong, which means you don't really need to be concerned with risk.. why would you? You can't lose. THIS is why you blew up, and it's why you are going to blow up again. Unless you change it, of course. In fact, to put a real wet blanket on your Friday, you're actually doomed to repeat this cycle for many years, unless you actually learn to respect risk. +$12K days mean squat if the same behavior that got you the $12K results in you losing it all, and more, over the next few days.

I almost forgot: stop f-king trading on a plane. I've been there, and it's the most moronic thing you could possibly do. Just stop being an idiot. If you did that at a real trading firm someone else's ass would be in your seat the following Monday. I'm not kidding. TST tolerates it because you have made more money for them than you've lost, because you paid for combines and resets. They know a gambler when they see one (you), and you'll keep coming back to the well enough to make it worth their while.

If you really want to improve your results, I have something that will help you, but I doubt you'll do it. Here's the challenge: don't trade at all on your new combine on Monday. In fact, don't look at the market. Do something else. Don't open the platform, don't check quotes. Log off today at 5pm and don't even look until Tuesday morning. Can you handle that? My bet is, not a chance in hell. This little exercise was designed (by me, for me, when I was also an addict) to remove a little bit of the punch bowl from your life. You are completely imbalanced (and your girlfriend knows this, and doesn't like it, btw). Regain a little balance, regain some clarity, and gain some consistency. You won't do it, but that's what I'd recommend, if you would like to step off the treadmill and start actually getting somewhere.

Gee, don't sugarcoat it like that Josh, give it to him straight.

Great advice. The truth about the nature of human experience (not just trading) is that we learn way more from failure than from success.
When we fail, we start paying attention and asking questions.
When we succeed, we just become complacent and tell ourselves how great we are.

So cheers to failure... and the growth that follows!
Wasn't it MJ who said "I succeed because I fail"?

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Gee, don't sugarcoat it like that Josh, give it to him straight.

Great advice. The truth about the nature of human experience (not just trading) is that we learn way more from failure than from success.
When we fail, we start paying attention and asking questions.
When we succeed, we just become complacent and tell ourselves how great we are.

So cheers to failure... and the growth that follows!
Wasn't it MJ who said "I succeed because I fail"?

My old friend, as always, a very positive message! And oh so true ... we tend to love the successes and hate the failures, but we are who we are because of both! They're almost two sides of the same coin... can't have one without the other. How we respond to both builds the character we have. Cheers to you and a great weekend ahead!

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