Too many sellers or not too many sellers?

First, I was sort of proud of myself in the morning for being able to finally pull the trigger again.

Second, one thing is the preparation. The other is actually following it. I think I need more precise scenarios, not only a general description of the possible market movement for the next day and S/R levels, i.e. I need scenarios of what to do on each S/R level.

Today I traded countertrend...
Trade #1
Entry before the setup completed. It was confirmed only by intermarket divergence but not on delta. Full SL.
Result: -9 ticks

Trade #2
Another countertrend, correct setup, confirmed by delta but the sellers are really strong today.
Result: +4-6= -2 ticks

Total result for the day: -11 ticks

Major thing for me today was that I was able to trade again. I felt somehow "exhausted" after the month of contest. I assume I am just new to it and have to get used to it. On the other hand I let the newly regained confidence to pull the trigger distract myself. After the first trade I completely lost my attention and started wondering around. That is why my second trade came so late afterwards.

We are heading back to previous value.

Today I planned to trade but was not really sure.
I trade from home. However, with all the family (kids as well as husband) around it was impossible.
I felt awkward when my husband stood in front of me and my monitor asking whether this was really it? smiling when I was waiting patiently for my trade. So I smiled too and I knew that it was it for today so I called it a day.

Also, I have been in a bit of an emotional turmoil since the end of the contest.
First, after it finished I was suddenly afraid to pull the trigger because I was afraid of not being right.
Then I realized that I lacked confidence because I did not have enough practice.
Then I realized I would not be able to get practice if I was afraid to pull the trigger.
And I was back at the first point...

So first of all, I need some more practice. I had plans for April but those are now in shatters because of incoming work. Obviously I did not do enough to have the time necessary for all I planned. That is the reason why I plan, and plan it properly, to have the whole May for my own "Trading Academy". I plan to prepare a daily schedule of specific activities including reports and records and I am really looking forward to it.

We are still in the down trend, though the first buyers appeared.

PS: My PC crashed on Saturday morning... Spent all Easter looking for a new PC and reinstalling the whole system + softwares...

My trading consists of scattered clicks outside of my plan because of lack of time.
I decided to interrupt the trading till my "trading academy" starts in May.
And by the way, I won a complimentary copy of The Disciplined Trader Master Kit. I hope it will come soon and it will be helpful.

My prep for tomorrow: Still no buyers.

Finally it seems that the buyers arrived. Could be seen from the very morning. Still there.

Despite being predominant during the last two days, buyers seem still a bit hesitant.

Here is my PMA for tomorrow. After Friday's heavy selling it will be difficult for buyers to overcome it tomorrow but who knows .

PS:
I found it quite difficult to not trade after a month of paper trading and journaling .
Cannot wait till May...

Sellers on uptick