I am on the verge off blowing up my second (undercapitalized) account within a year now so I guess instead of waiting for that to happen its back to sim for the meantime. However in the past I have proven to myself to be completely unable to take SIM serious, so therefore this journal: I need accountability. Maybe forcing myself to post my trades will help me shame myself into taking SIM more serious, shame has always been a good motivator.
A little bit about myself, my name is Giacomo and I live in Amsterdam, as my name says, I do not trade forex anymore as my name says but I do have a history of choosing retarded online names. I trade a mix of Price Action (Al Brooks, PATS, Lance Beggs) and Orderflow.
I have been going over my year and I am not too happy with the progress I made, although that can be some leftovers from the "This is easy I'll be a millionaire in year" mentality I entered this profession with and my expectancy is still too high. My biggest culprits this year have been not following my process, procrastinating till infinity, lack of focus and clarity in goal setting and complicating every single thing. When you go to the root cause of all these issues I find that they all lead to not being able to deal with uncertainty. The newest "indicator", next book or the next productivity hack will not take that away, they are just elaborate ways of the brain to convince itself that that new piece of information will be the thing that will make the difference.
I have been procrastinating and putting off making this journal for a while now, so here it goes, the first step is always the hardest.
P.S. Picking a title is hard, I was considering FGBL & FESX trading journal but if I do that ill end up trading Crude within a week or so.